i think of death every day. 

not the good kind. 

its becoming very difficult and very dark. 

i hope i have the courage to go through it, or the alternative. 

either way, we will see.

the person closest to me says i need help, and that i do. 

     

I GOT MY FIRST REAL JOB OFFER EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ok, intern but whatever)

IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF WE CAME FAR, WE REALLY DID