i never realised how many people read my blog until i got a few dm's regarding a few of my previous posts.
i always thought this was a quiet safe haven and it holds quite a number of personal secrets (or not-so-personal) now that i think about it. i started writing casually here because i thought i had no one who bothered to read through it but knowing that there are some people who care enough about me to give me an occasional "hey are u ok?" helped me so much.
u have no idea.
anyway, this week I'm feeling much more positive and confident. i am going to take the new month by storm and put my chin up as high as it allows me to. i am going to give myself breaks that i deserve, study sufficiently and consistently but most importantly - i am going to work on keeping myself sane and happy.
also, i need to get used to doing things alone - especially eating alone. i have only one friend on campus, and her eating times differ from mine.
so i am going to learn to have to live independently.
but for everyone who checked in on me, thank you so much. you guys have no idea how much it's helped me.
p/s: I FINALLY BOUGHT A SUCCULENT it was kinda atas with a terrarium and all but hey, i'm using her as a symbol of growth and positivity. and she really calms me down.